Friday, May 27, 2011

Flashback Friday

Ouray, CO
Memorial Weekend 2005
Ellie was 19 months old
We are headed back to Ouray today!!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Super-Human Grace

I'm exhausted. I'm tired. I'm worn down. I'm bushed, disheartened, dispirited, distressed, exasperated, weary, overburdened, annoyed, haggard, irritated, jaded, and spent. (Yeah I used a thesaurus but that does not negate how I feel!)

This was one day about a year ago when they were bored in their room.
Everyone needs two almost-5-year-old boys with nothing to do all day every day. 

I spend my days saying to myself, "WHY??". Why can't they learn? Why don't they listen? Why don't they obey? Why don't they desire to make better choices? WHY?

I have gone to bed every night for the last week trying to brainstorm how to make my days better, easier, more enjoyable while they are at home together all day every day for the next 90 days. I pray for wisdom and creativity and endurance and sweet words to flow from my mouth. I pray for new perspective and outlook. I read books about loving unconditionally and how to live life to the fullest right before I fall asleep. And approximately 10 minutes after I put my feet on the floor in the morning I am spewing and threatening and yelling and well,  feeling exasperated.

As I was cleaning this morning and had moved one unnamed 4-year-old-boy to 3 different time out locations, I thought, 'isn't that how our Father God feels about us'? Exasperated? Wondering every day: Why can't they learn? Why don't they listen? Why don't they obey? Why don't they desire to make better choices?

Fortunately for us He is God and He has infinite amounts of grace and even when exasperated He can still offer grace and love and give us another chance. I, however am human. A visual I have had lately is of God living in me and giving me power that I would not have otherwise. Almost like a super-hero. Visualize haggard mom with a big 'HS' for Holy Spirt on her shirt. The holy spirit is in me and can make me more like Jesus every minute of every day. He can give me the ability to love these boys well despite their sinfulness.

God give me the POWER to have your super human powered grace exude from my person every minute of every day!! Those boys need it. And Lord forgive me for every time I open my mouth and spew nastiness to these boys today. Amen.

Anyone have advice for structure, creativity, and large amounts of patience? Anyone else going through this yet or anticipating it as summer begins?

Monday, May 23, 2011

Multitude Monday

336. KNOWING that He IS God and that when I doubt, He understands
337. one on one time with my boys
338. rhubarb outside my front door
339. how music speaks to my soul
340. a new found love for reading
341. "Mommy and Daddy Night"
342. celebrating first birthdays in our house with a cute girl turning 14
343. watching little miracles and big miracles in front of my very eyes. Thank you Jesus.
344. fun time with my hubby on a much needed date night
345. Friesema family time
346. my strong, Christian leader husband
347. moisture and the lifting of the fire ban just in time for camping
348. boys last day of preschool and the blessing of their teachers this year
349. watching Ellie's class in the school talent show - Conrad's Crazy Frogs
Check back in 2 weeks for another installment of Multitude Monday. God IS Good...and gratitude precedes the miracle...

Friday, May 20, 2011

Flashback Friday

Next Friday starts camping season!
These pics are from Memorial Weekend 2008


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Multitude Monday

321. a husband who does yardwork because I love a nice yard
322. new flower bed
323. new cute hand made sign for my new flower bed, made by my kids
324. a nap
325. more miracles witnessed
326. garage sale season
327. time with john and annie and kids
328. internet
329. cousin time

330. opportunities to serve and help
331. being married into an amazing family
332. time to love on my sweet niece
333. true, amazing, loving, giving, selfless friends
334. moisture
335. answered prayer
Check back next week for another installment of Multitude Monday. God IS Good...and gratitude precedes the miracle...

Friday, May 13, 2011

Monday, May 9, 2011

Multitude Monday

287. watching my babies play in the ocean
288. running in 86 degrees instead of 36 degreees
289. watching out for alligators instead of black bears
290. oxygen
291. palm trees
292. the sound of weedeaters and lawn mowers
293. watching the dolphin swim with Kenny's flip flop
294. ocean breeze
295. playing in the rain with my kids
296. my head full of Gram memories every few seconds for a week
297. fresh shrimp
298. key lime pie
299. freshly squeezed orange juice
300. "Gopher Tortoise" crossing sign
301. beach sunset with my family
302. opportunities to study starfish, crab, jellyfish, sand dollars, sea urchins, coral, sting ray, and dolphins with my kids
303. crying on the beach
304. remembering Gram
305. dolphins in the swim area
306. watching the boys retell the 3 bears in sand drawings on the beach
307. vacumming with my Gram's VERY old vacuum cleaner
308. decisions made
309. deep roots
310. family
311. support system
312. church done well
313. big strong grown men in tears, broken
314. small boy hurting handing his daddy kleenex
315. miracles witnessed
316. knowing Grandpa is whole, not hurting, with no tumors, in God's arms right now
317. time for Josh with cousins seldom seen
318. far away support systems
319. more miracles witnessed
320. listening to a sweet little voice talking to her Mama whom she misses
It's a long list of blessings. There are so many more flooding my mind. That is it for now. Check back next week for another installment of Multitude Monday. God IS SOOO Good...And gratitude precedes the miracle...

Friday, May 6, 2011

Flashback Friday

June 28, 1927 ~ May 6, 2011
We love you Grandpa Friesema ~ You will be missed
Ray, John Sr., Josh, Isaac ~ July 2006